oohh mmmyyy goooddnnneess why are you on my blog? GET OFF.
I’M NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU. I DON’T CARE ANYMORE. NNOO OONNEE CARES ANYMORE.
& you know who you are.
so i’m just gonna copy and paste this from my main blog. (for some reason it wont let me reblog it) but i know you guys check out my personal & my main blog. i blocked you from my main blog for a reason, chick. i wasn’t writing about you AT ALL because I DONT CARE! but here ya go.
alright, i’m not gonna name any names..& i’m gonna stay classy for this.
but the girl who sent me the two page message in my ask either this morning or last night, really needs to stop. and you know who you are.
i know who you are, and you are not in this situation what so ever. and if you were, you’d know that ALL OF IT IS OVER! WE DON’T CARE ANYMORE!
ME, MY FRIENDS, AND EVEN YOUR FRIEND («<the ones who are ACTUALLY in this situation, not you!) are D O N E with it all.
we see each other in the halls, we avoid each other. if someone brings up the situation, we change the subject. WE DON’T GIVE A FLYING FUCK. we don’t want anymore drama!
so for YOU to go onto MY BLOG and send me a message like THAT, is unnecessary.
hunny, if you are trying to defend her, thats AWESOME. but don’t do it after the whole thing has died down. you’re just starting shit again.
so, imma pretend like this whole thing never happened, and if i get another message from you or your friend, then thats gonna cause some reeeaaalll problems.
(Source: f4lling-f4st)
Today was okay, better than last night
But im still not all there. Ann called, i told her what happened last night. She called the hospital, with my okay, and Im being admited to the hospital. I think shes talking to my dad right now.. Do i want to go? Of course not. Im TERRIFIED of hospitals..but why am i going? Because im scared. Im so so scared of myself. I just want to be happy..i just want to be happy…
I honestly would have died last night if it wernt for noelle comming over & saving me.<3
I fuckin love her. With all my little heart..& colin, if youre reading this, i dont look at you just as my best friend’s boyfriend. Youre one of my really good friends. I can relate so much to you. Thanks for that message last night, it really helped. Imma respond better, later. But just know, if you ever need anyone, im always here for you. hug Got maaaybe an hour of good sleep. Noelle stayed till 11 (2hours), talked to mom for about 30min, on the phone with dad till 1 (3hours), and then talked to jorge for the rest of the night. Fell asleep on the phone. Im dissapointed in myself, though. 5weeks without self harm…5WEEKS. & i broke that. They sting so bad… My eyes are so swollen. I was crying for about 6 hours straight. I have no trace of makeup on. Im either hiding behind my bangs, hands, or my binder. I dont want anyone to see me like this. I feel like such a failure…
Fuck living. Im finally gonna do it. Im finally going to commit and kill myself.
5weeks without self harm down the drain, and i dont even give a flying fuck.
